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25 September 2009 @ 06:48 am
Title: The Contradiction of "Sorry, I Love You" [Chapter 8/?]  

Title: The Contradiction of "Sorry, I Love You"

Pairings: Eventual pairings. I won't say. :)) *it's quite obvious*

Rating: R

Warning: English is not my first language. Un-BETAed

Summary: Kyuhyun goes to a boy’s school and he doesn't like everyone. He knows his good in whatever he does and thinks life is boring. But when his life starts to change in ways he couldn't imagine, he finally realizes that he has much more things to learn.

A/N: Part B!! i have attempted so many times buts it didn't work! so a big chunk is left out to become Part C. which may come in days. because I'm too impatient with lj.


Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5 Part a
Chapter 5 Part b
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8 Part a

Chapter 8 Part b

It hurt for Kyuhyun to be standing there watching Sungmin cry for another guy. It sliced into him like samurai swords and it was worse than losing in starcraft or any other game. This wasn’t any normal pain. It took on Kyuhyun’s ability to contradict his true feelings. The way Sungmin would just cry; completely speechless. The way Sungmin would want to watch Eunhyuk with Donghae unless Kyuhyun pulled on him.

It hurt like the demons in hell were crushing his heart; bit by bit. But there was nothing Kyuhyun could do because he wouldn’t move. Not after all the war he had in his head to decide if he loved this guy. Not after all the effort Kyuhyun put in this, he never put any effort in anything. At this point just being beside Sungmin would be ok. It will be ok, right?

The next week, they were allowed to go back home. And Kyuhyun saw Sungmin’s delightfulness towards this short break from school.

“Maybe it won’t hurt so much if I don’t see him” Kyuhyun just nods but he looks away just in case his jealousy was showing. “Where are you going to be, Kyu?”

“To my apartment” Kyuhyun still doesn’t look up.


“Yup, my parents live in Canada” he lets it slip. Nobody knows this bit of information. Kyuhyun watches Sungmin’s confused expression.

“You live… al…alone?” Kyuhyun doesn’t understand why he nods but he has. Sungmin laughs abruptly, his head falling back as the laughs becomes louder. “You have to be kidding me, right?”

But Kyuhyun just smiles. Maybe it’s best that way.


At home, the butler greets him with an abnormally happy smile – or Kyuhyun just never realiszed that the smile was always that happy. Kyuhyun quickly ran to his room eager to just drift to sleep. But then the butler stops him and that was something rather abnormal too.

“Young master, the maids aren’t home.” Kyuhyun raises an eyebrow at him.

“They went for their break last week, and haven’t returned,” the butler bows slightly at Kyuhyun. “I’m sorry that I didn’t do anything about it”

“It doesn’t matter. If you want to go for your break too, I couldn’t care less,” An expression of shock crosses the butler’s face.

“But, Young Master, nobody would take care of you” Kyuhyun smiles widely.

“You don’t have to worry about me. I’ve been living by myself my whole life. I can take care of myself. Just worry about yourself” Another shocked expression crosses his face.

“Young master, you have changed…” the butler is hesitant. “The pureness of your heart is starting to show”

Now it was Kyuhyun’s turn to look shocked. What was this guy talking about?

So Kyuhyun ignores him as he happily packed his stuff, continuing to his long awaiting bed.


Bang! Bang! Bang!

Kyuhyun didn’t understand why there was a bang on the door just as when his dreams were about to bring him to Sungmin.

Bang! Bang! Bang!

He also had no idea why it didn’t stop.

Bang! Bang! Bang!

Kyuhyun glared at the angry red digits of the side table clock. It was 3:00 a.m. Kyuhyun groaned as his body protested on getting up but eventually get up.

Bang! Bang…

“Yes… I’m here… Do you have any idea… What the… Sungmin?” Sungmin was standing in Kyuhyun’s doorstep, his whole body dripping with rain water – when did it rain? But Kyuhyun saw it clearly that Sungmin had been crying.

“I’m sorry,” Sungmin squeaked but Kyuhyun had already pulled Sungmin in quickly rushing around the house for something to help dry Sungmin. “What happened?” Kyuhyun was again questioning. He wrapped a towel around Sungmin and held on Sungmin’s ice cold hands.

“They went on their first date,” tears roll down his cheek. “Doing all the things I told Hyukkie to be my ideal first date…”

“Hyung, why do you pain yourself?” Sungmin looks into Kyuhyun eyes. Kyuhyun isn’t trying to make Sungmin laugh at his light jokes anymore. Kyuhyun was ready to tell his hyung bout the rush of his beat when he’s with him; he was ready to show the overpowering emotion that made his knees week; the same emotion that causes the heartache and his jealousy. He was ready – just so ready.

“It pains me to see you like this.” Kyuhyun swallows though his throat is pretty much dry. “Because I love you…” Kyuhyun just stares at Sungmin who looks back at him. “With all my heart.” Now, Sungmin has his eyes fixed on Kyuhyun’s eyes almost trying to search for the truth.

“Because you’re my hyung! So, don’t hurt yourself like this” And Sungmin just nods at this. “Do you mind if I bunk in?”

Kyuhyun directs him to the extra rooms the maids and butler had abandoned. “Be Ok, hyung.” Kyuhyun whispers as he switches off the light of Sungmin’s room. Now, he’ll think I’m a freaky dongsaeng! Way to go!

Current Location: what?
I'm feeling: annoyedannoyed
Listening to: what?
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missywkc: KeYmissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:00 am (UTC)
makes me happy that you like it.
dbsj0001dbsj0001 on September 25th, 2009 08:14 am (UTC)
kyu was so close,SO CLOSE on confessing!
why oh why did you have to add the hyung part!
i know i didn't comment on the other chapters but i just want you to know i've been reading this from the start
missywkc: sungminmissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:01 am (UTC)
glad you like my story.

even more glad that you commented. ^^
몰리 야tehgirlwonder on September 25th, 2009 12:06 pm (UTC)
Why did you have to add in that last part?!

Poor Sungmin though,
so heartbroken T______T
the other yurisallysync on September 25th, 2009 12:37 pm (UTC)
OMG KYU! Just confess!
Meiraxkeirafanx on September 25th, 2009 01:55 pm (UTC)
^^ that was so Kyu...not yet ready to tell Sungmin straight forward. It fits Kyu. I think he doesn't hurry with feelings and confessions.
(btw. did you hear "confessions" from SJ-M new mini album?)
missywkc: lovekyumissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:03 am (UTC)
i wrote this right after listening to confessions. LOL.

i love it. can't wait to get a copy for myself.
Song Hee Raonetruemei on September 25th, 2009 02:18 pm (UTC)
That stopped my heart!!!
I thought he was gonna confess!!!! ><

Im so thrilled at what's gonna happen!!!

Do you mind if i add you?!
missywkcmissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:04 am (UTC)
add me all you want.

glad you like it.

mister fish, did you die?tees2mai on September 25th, 2009 05:19 pm (UTC)
ryeowook01 on September 26th, 2009 05:29 pm (UTC)
Kyu should've just gone one and confessed; but i remember he's stubborn :p update soon, please? ^_^
missywkc: minnie stole my heartmissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:05 am (UTC)

and i agree on the stubborn part.