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07 October 2009 @ 03:27 pm
Title: The Contradiction of "Sorry, I Love You" [Chapter 9/?]  

Title: The Contradiction of "Sorry, I Love You"

Pairings: Eventual pairings. I won't say. :)) *it's quite obvious*

Rating: R

Warning: English is not my first language. Un-BETAed

Summary: Kyuhyun goes to a boy’s school and he doesn't like everyone. He knows his good in whatever he does and thinks life is boring. But when his life starts to change in ways he couldn't imagine, he finally realizes that he has much more things to learn.


Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5 Part a
Chapter 5 Part b
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8 Part a
Chapter 8 Part b
Chapter 8 Part c

Chapter 9


The next thing Kyuhyun knows is that he is on his way back to school after the short weekend. Sungmin had left the day after, ruffling his hair like the way a dongsaeng would always be. The dull pain made Kyuhyun weak in the knees just thinking of that night. Like a dongsaeng. A good dongsaeng.



Even if it hurts and he had been holding on to the tears that were threatening to fall, the first thing on his mind was to see Sungmin. And Kyuhyun did. The first thing he saw was indeed Sungmin. Sungmin attached to his rival; the one and only Eunhyuk. Kyuhyun didn’t know if he should push Eunhyuk away because it will only hurt Sungmin or catch Sungmin and ask him what the hell is he doing so close to Eunhyuk.



Kyuhyun stares intensely at Sungmin’s right arm that was latched on Eunhyuk’s but the two didn’t seem to realize the glare Kyuhyun was making. Completely in their own world.



It hit Kyuhyun like a thousand needles pierced in his small heart. He was pretty sure he was going to give in to his suddenly weak legs. I can’t do this. The voice almost came like a cry from the pain. Sungmin had his own world - The one that had Kyuhyun in it. Now, it’s with Eunhyuk. The one that Kyuhyun just never realised until it was too late for him to fall back out of love.



So, Kyuhyun doesn’t watch them leave. Kyuhyun doesn’t beat Eunhyuk down or take Sungmin away. He walks ahead like he doesn’t see them; like he never knew Sungmin. Like he doesn’t see the way Sungmin has suddenly saw him. And he doesn’t turn back around to meet Sungmin’s gaze.



It wasn’t because he didn’t want to. It was just that he had always been a coward.  A big foolish coward.





 “Kyu, where are you going?” The voice rings his whole alert system. Kyuhyun becomes tense but he turns almost too casually it gave his cover away. “Aren’t you going to the music room?” Slowly Kyuhyun sees those shiny eyes that portrayed the innocence the owner owned.



Kyuhyun lightly shakes his head. “Not today,” he croaks. Sungmin gives him a weird look but Kyuhyun turns around to walk away. And Kyuhyun knows no matter how much he wishes that Sungmin would stop him and force him to go to the music room with him, Sungmin just lets him walk away. Truthfully, that was what hurt most.



Kyuhyun had tried to make it out not hurt. He had tried to pretend that it doesn’t hurt to see Sungmin attached to Eunhyuk. He had tried reasoning to himself that Eunhyuk belonged to Donghae. They were still together. And despite that fair distance Kyuhyun had made with Sungmin, he still caught that bitter look Sungmin gets when their together.


Why did Sungmin want to pain himself like that?


Was he that strong?


Was Eunhyuk much more worth than Kyuhyun himself?


Why wasn’t Kyuhyun with Sungmin right now?


He just couldn’t stand the pain that Sungmin chose to bare?


Yes, because he’s just a coward.



Kyuhyun remained questioning himself for the following days. Only turning to Sungmin the moment he was sure his hyung wasn’t watching. He had told himself that he was just being a good dongsaeng. Just trying to make sure his feelings doesn’t intervene with Sungmin’s. That way Sungmin would be happy, even if it’s only while Donghae wasn’t around.





Sungmin sits with his legs crossed in his home. It’s been exactly three months since his been home – it was summer break and he was eating dinner in front of the TV.  It has also been exactly three months since his talked to Kyuhyun.



“Ah, why is that guy so distant?” Sungmin had watched his dongsaeng slowly avoid him. It was totally weird for him; he didn’t even go to the music room anymore it was just too weird without him.



The house phone suddenly rings and Sungmin sighs. His mother was out so he had to get that. “Hello,”



“Sungmin-ah!” the cheers in the background makes Sungmin ears hurt. “We’re eating out and you’re the only one not here! Where are you?” Leeteuk shrieks. Sungmin sighs. “Oh, must I?”



The sounds of the cell phone suddenly being passed around are heard. “YAH!! Get here NOW!!” Kangin shouts into the phone.  “Fine...” Sungmin sighs as he hears Leeteuk smacking Kangin with his nagging tone telling him not to shout.



Sungmin enters the familiar restaurant that the boys had made their hang out. It was a rather homey place with private seats and huts. Sungmin walked to their normal spot to see the rest laughing at Donghae. “You’re finally here.” Leeteuk greets quickly taking a chair for him. Sometimes Sungmin just never understands why Leeteuk just pampers them.



As Leeteuk takes his seat he suddenly realizes that there were 5 people there, excluding him. Donghae... Eunhyuk... Kangin... Leeteuk... Sungmin’s eyes scan the person before him. Kyuhyun?



And like he heard Sungmin say his name he looks up. He doesn’t smile or frowns; he simply just looks at Sungmin for a nanosecond then looks away. He’s being distant again.



But Kyuhyun is casual with the others. He doesn’t show any sign of resentment of Sungmin being there. It was just like Sungmin didn’t exist even if they were sitting right across each other.



“Hey, Sungmin, what do you want to order?” Eunhyuk catches Sungmin’s attention; he was holding Donghae’s hand under the table.


“The fish and chips are nice,” that voice was the voice that Sungmin hadn’t heard in a long time but Kyuhyun looks straight ahead like it wasn’t him who said it. Sungmin stares at the younger.



“Really?” Sungmin chimes trying to be undisturbed that Kyuhyun was talking to him – they weren’t in talking terms right?



Kyuhyun just stares back at Sungmin. The intense stare makes Sungmin look away. “Whatever he said.”



Kyuhyun joins in the conversation with his hyungs but Sungmin just remains silent. Sungmin really just never joins the conversation anyway.


It’s been three months since Eunhyuk and Donghae were together and still Sungmin isn’t over it. He glances as they whisper. And he frowns to himself grabbing his water and taking a sip to cover it. He realizes Kyuhyun caught it while the others were laughing.


Abruptly, he stands up. “I’ll be heading back now.”


He quickly walks away not even giving a chance for anyone to say goodbye.


An hour later, they leave the place. Sungmin tucks his hand in his pocket because he has nothing else to do. He suddenly feels a hand land on his shoulders. “Sungmin-ah, did you get into a fight with Kyuhyun?”



Sungmin frowns at Kangin. “He doesn’t spend any more time with us. So, I called him over,”


Sungmin nods. “So, you fought with him.”


“Of course not. We talked just now,” Sungmin feels the lousiness of his excuse but decides to say it anyway. Why would Kangin care anyway right?


“He’s a good guy, y’know,” Kangin pulls his arm of Sungmin, smiling. I know he is.


“You’re just saying that because you miss him. You like him that much anyway.” Leeteuk voice is suddenly heard but his statement just makes Sungmin chuckle. One minute, Kangin was threatening the guy, bullying him around, the other minute he missed him.



And I miss him too.

Current Location: shopping with Kyu
I'm feeling: aggravatedaggravated
Listening to: Oricon - I believe.
Funsucker-Yimsungminnie012 on October 7th, 2009 08:13 am (UTC)
kyuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!! why are you being like this...
we all know you're so much sexier when you do teh hitting on/other "stuff" D:
just like an old married couple!
minnie, forget about the fish/monkey couple and go to your bunny/nerd couple!!!
missywkc: kyuhyunmissywkc on October 7th, 2009 08:34 am (UTC)
wow, you're freaking fast.

Kangteuk just suit being a married couple.
Song Hee Raonetruemei on October 7th, 2009 10:52 am (UTC)
OMG.. *tears*
Kyu is distancing himself... X____X
NOOOOOO~~ I'll cry~ X___X

I am such a drama junkie~ X_X
I like it~ XDDDD

missywkcmissywkc on October 9th, 2009 07:25 am (UTC)
i'm anticipating the next chappie too. LOL

glad u like it.^^
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missywkc: sungminmissywkc on October 9th, 2009 07:26 am (UTC)
i love you for loving me!!

glad you like.
the other yurisallysync on October 7th, 2009 12:30 pm (UTC)
I think Kyuhyun did just the right thing because it's making Sungmin realize that the one he truly likes is Kyuhyun... not Eunhyuk. ♥
mister fish, did you die?tees2mai on October 7th, 2009 03:40 pm (UTC)
you hvnt made it up to me yet...

my kyumin heart is still broken!
missywkc: kyuhyunmissywkc on October 9th, 2009 07:27 am (UTC)
i'm still working on that.
it's just that Kyuhyun so stubborn!!

but we all love him anyway. ^^
Meiraxkeirafanx on October 7th, 2009 04:10 pm (UTC)
Sungmin doesn't get it, huh?
Jacque ♥jacquejacque on October 10th, 2009 02:11 pm (UTC)
kyu talk to sungmin already~ confess already~ :D sungmin~ get over hyuk already. kyumin must be formed. not eunmin. accept that fact. :))

can't wait for the next chapter! :D
missywkc: KeYmissywkc on October 11th, 2009 07:35 am (UTC)
glad that u like :)
yukiatsu.: Hae [super girl]♥iheartsungmin on October 10th, 2009 04:45 pm (UTC)
Kyuhyun is being so stubborn T^T
-->oh, it's me, ryeowook01~! ^_^
but at least now Sungmin is starting to see how much Kyu meant to him ^.^
missywkc: kyuhyunmissywkc on October 11th, 2009 07:38 am (UTC)
Kyuhyun's always stubborn.

but i love him anyway... ^^

love u for always commenting!
x3sujudbskx33x3sujudbskx33 on October 12th, 2009 01:26 am (UTC)
i lovee these. can't wait for the next onee
poor kyuhyunniee. i wish sungminniee kneww earlier